It’s been a really long time since I’ve been able to say I’ve made some new friends, real friends. Not a friend from work, and that’s the only place we ever talk. I’m talking about a real friend that comes over, we frequently have meals together, our kids play together, and we spill all of our life secrets together kind of friend. I’ve protected myself from getting close to other people because I feel in the past, I’ve always invested more in the friendship than the other person. It got to the point where it seemed to become a one-way street, and those people weren’t giving the same amount of effort back to uphold the friendship. So I stopped getting close to people. I stopped opening up to people. I hated meeting new people.
As an Army brat, I learned to not get super close to everyone, because eventually, in 1-2 years, you’d be with an entirely new group anyway. There was no stability in my lifestyle or my friends. I was okay with that at the time, but looking back it, I really disliked that. I’m envious of my husband and his sister’s friendships because they all go wayyy back. It’s something I’ve never really experienced except with a few people in my life that are still in my life (Thank God.)
That’s why the friendships I have right now… you better believe I’m going to hang on for dear life. My friend was having a hard time, and I asked her why she didn’t call me. Actually, I cussed her out first and asked her why she didn’t call me, and she said she didn’t want to be a burden. She said she knew my plate was full of my own problems, and she didn’t want to worry me.
Let me tell you, BITCH YOU NEED TO WORRY ME. I believe in life, you get to choose what you care and don’t care about. You get to choose what battles you fight. But as your friend, I’m not going to let you fight that battle alone. You don’t get to choose what worries me or not because I am your FRIEND, and it’s my duty as a friend to make sure you pick yourself up. Because I know I can expect the same from these two friends.
I am a loyal friend. And I will never leave you in the dust, and I will always show up even if we’re thousands of miles away, I’ll be right there on FaceTime if that’s all I can do at that moment. So if you’re here on my blog, then just know that I trust you, and that I am always here for you if you need someone to listen.